Another New Leaf

It was another birthday for me yesterday. 38 years of insignificant life. I don't want to be harsh to myself but that's how i feel. I want to start living a happy life no matter how insignificant it is. A "Soul Makeover" could be the answer. Start to live life in the right frame of mind. Start organizing, dream once again, make something happen. In the end, just live happily.

I would like to do something for myself and for the sake of the people I love. I am afraid I have lost myself. I am not me anymore. The very Me was altered drastically by the miseries that I have suffered. I want to be a better person. Better than before. Better than now. I would like to start by declaring the Things I would DO and NOT DO this year:

I will Sing more often. Laugh more often. Be genuinely happy.
I will Pray more often. Hear mass regularly with my family, at least with my kids.
I will Avoid saying bad words and curses.
I will Take care of my health. Eat more lettuce and bananas. Exercise more. I will stay away from salty and sweet foods.
I will Make memories with my kids. Take more photos. Make our own family rituals.

I will read more books.
I will learn new skills (this year, Caregiving).
I will organize my journal and post more.
I will conduct my everyday life simply and quietly.
I will expand my genealogy search.

I will organize my schedule.
I will start early everyday.
I will work harder.
I will attend more professional trainings and self development.
I will clean my name.

I will try to be affectionate to my husband. It's all that is left.
I will try to be sensual again. Where has my passion gone?
I will admire the beautiful things around me.
I will have faith in myself.
I will have dignity and respect for myself again.

That's the list I have right now. Maybe tomorrow I could think of some more. I would try to everyday read and keep these resolutions at heart. I hope something good would come out of these declarations. At the end of my 39th lifeyear I will check this list and assess my accomplishments. Would my life, my soul and my happiness improve...I'll see..